God is doing a new thing

 12 years later... a new post :)

So much has changed. I'm married, I have a son who is 4. Life is difficult, life has thrown me many lemons. I have grown calloused, annoyed, scared, anxious, and have walked away from God multiple times. 

But - he is doing a new thing in me. I feel like I'm starting to wake up from a dark dream (which I have had plenty of during the past years!) Reading back on this post, I remember the feeling of wanting to know God and His love - and it is cool to see that He was clearly working in my heart. He was real... I just didn't know how to properly internalize it. It has taken deliverance (a continual process), and a deep humbling to bring me to the point I am now: hungry for the Lord in my life. Desperate for His healing. Tired from trying to do it all myself. Anxious from years of turning away without realizing it. Yet there He stood. Waiting. Wanting the prodigal daughter but to look at His face once to realize what she was missing.

I'm back, Father. I love you, Jesus. Holy Spirit, guide me.